Im laying on the couch, sick and bored and not at school, with nothing to do. So i was like.. hmmmm i think im going to start a blog. and plus, everytime i start a journal my mom finds it and gets mad at me for writing the truth, she cant find and read THIS one. and so here i am.. and since it's my first one, im going to write alot.
anyway... im sick right now, with a cold or something, im not sure. I'm going to the doctor at 2:30. im not looking forward to that. I didnt go to school today or yesterday, so im going to have oodles of homework. =CC i HATE being sick. i always am though.
I cant wait till summer! I cant wait to go on vacation, i cant wait to move back to lewis county, i cant wait to leave this dump whole, i cant wait till the strawberry festival, and i cant wait for the damn school year to be over. but i HAVE to wait for all of those things. i hate hate hate school. i never really did untill i moved here this year. before here i made A's and B's and i was in the honor society, and now i make D's and F's. It's my fault i guess. but it's partly my moms, even though she doesnt want to admit it, it is. We fight alllll the time. and it stresses me out sooo much. she never really listens to me or my problems like parents are soppose to. and when she listens, she only hears what she wants to hear. then she goes on and on about how i dont care about her and i just care about myself and blah blah. I seriously think that she is crazy.
She always tells me to talk to her and tell her whats wrong.. why are you sooo sad all the time.. why do you make bad grades.. why cant you talk to meeee!...
So then i try to talk to her and she once again only hears what she wants to hear. and starts fighting with me again. Then i try to just not talk to her at all, so we wont fight and then she gets mad that i dont talk to her. so i dont know WHAT IN THE HELL im soppose to do.
a couple weeks ago at school i was called to the counsulers office. and there my mom was. the counsulers where like.. jessie, you're mom is worried about you. blah blahh. but they saw how crazy she was and sent me to stay with my grandma all spring break so i could get away from her. she was soppose to leave me alone there alllll week. but she didnt.. she kept calling and calling. JESSIE WHY ARE YOU MAD AT ME!! I DIDNT DOOO ANYTHING TO YOU.
between her and my step dad, im not sure how i keep from killing myself. i dont have enough time in the world to write about how much i loath them.
well.. im going to go get ready to go to the doctor. I'll write when i get back.
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hey.... i know how u feel....... i can't stand my step mom..... she thinks i only care about myself..... but yeah my parents are divorced 2.... so I have bad grades(2 my dad their bad grades.....) I get A's B's and C's....... no D's or F's unless it's like a final exam and I get nervous....
I dont want to sound mean, but that story sounds funny to me cause you say that everytime your mom only listens to what she wants to hear, yet you dont listen to her after the first few words.
However, I cant complain b/c my parents are like that too most of the time. so I guess it isnt funny.